藍及其所創造的一切─「非空間」

謝貽娟 藝術家

猶記四歲左右,媽媽買了紅、黃、藍三罐廣告顏料讓我用手玩耍體驗,除此之外,媽媽還教我變魔術,紅+黃=橘、藍+黃=綠、紅+藍=紫,千變萬化的繽紛感圍繞著我,也不知為什麼從此便喜歡上了「藝術」,對於「藝術」的啟蒙全來自於媽媽讓我認識了什麼是「顏色」。

在喬爾西藝術設計學院(Chelsea College of Art and Design)遇到了我的恩師之一──Amanda,她開啟了我不一樣的思考邏輯,我們之間無話不談,終將目前創作的風格統稱為「非空間」(None-Space),也為我的功課題訂了「非空間」的名字。在喬爾西藝術學院時,我每天都是愉悅的,因為這種自由的學習風氣才是我一直想要的。而之後在皇家藝術學院(Royal College of Art)則有幸地遇到Sir.Tim Mara及Sir. Jonathan,我和他們及Amanda不斷的交換心得,相互溝通。

我個人對藍色有極深的偏愛,總覺得藍色會講話,好神秘、不可思議,透明卻又很深邃……,就像聽著瑪麗亞.卡拉斯(Maria Callas, 1923~1977)的聲音般被環抱著,很近卻又遠遠地。回想起1997年時,一個人坐在開往西班牙的火車上,望向窗外看到滿天的藍,清澈的河水倒映著各種不同的藍,那樣的光、影、色,打從心底深處的激動,如此的純粹……,自那時起,藍更深深的烙印在我心底最深的那一塊兒。

非空間

我篤信有這麼一個空間的存在,「非空間」是存在於每一個人的心中,「非空間」是非物質的,就像空氣。它,並沒有任何的條規來充滿對應,沒有開始,也沒有結束。它,不只是精神的!所以,得藉由各種不同的語言將它翻譯出、表達出,或許它是一幅畫,一段舞蹈,一曲音樂,一首詩歌,亦或是哲學、心理學……。即便如此,我會使用藝術表現出我所想、所見,畢竟我只擅長此一表現工具,以禪宗的一個公案「十牛圖」為例,倒不失一個好方式。莫札特(W.A. Mozart, 1756-1791)曾說:「我不會寫詩,我也不是畫家不能用圖畫來表現,我更不是舞蹈家,但我可以用聲音來表達我想表達,我所能表達,因為我是個音樂家」。

「非空間」是開始,也是結束,而結束正是開始。如果你能夠非常專心的比較這兩個點,現在的這個「開始」和「結束」的點,你會發現這兩個點之間的延伸是無限的,而「非空間」就出現了。

「非空間」是內心的、心靈的、精神的、充滿的、亦是空無的,是愉悅的、是沒有造形的、沒有形體、是清澈的,像霧般強求不得的,是自然的,會飛,是沒有時間的,是抽象的,是沒有定律的,更是沒有邊際的、無限的、美的!

它存在於心底裡的深處!

它是純粹的、單純的!

自我;無我

自我;無我,對於許多人而言好像是永無休止解開的難題,事實上它不是無法解決的問題,反倒是最有限制性而且深奧的問題。就因為它是深奧的,才使人無法透徹的解題。解釋「自我;無我」並不難,因為它是「非空間」裡的精髓,我由畫中漸漸的體會到解釋我所了解的比不解釋的好。

自我;無我,屬於哲學層次的問題,有某部份則屬於神秘經驗的問題,說它是哲學的問題,是因為純理論的「無我」涵蓋了精神、平靜和愉悅的境界,許多人認為擁有「自我」就是達到永恆快樂的狀態。而那個「自我」是「我」,存在的「我」,在「非空間」裡,顯然這些個體都存在,但它們不單是「自我」,因為有些是幻象,而那些不是幻象的是自然,它們不該被執著而被誤為是「自我」,因為會被我們的心智,微細的、不知不覺的「共歲」,使我們執著於它。
「無我」是如何精細和深奧,非物質性的,假使我們有透視「無我」的能力,就能廣泛且透徹地曉知事物的真理,不論它是有形的、無形的、世俗的或超越世俗的,都將使我們明白世界沒有不尋常的事物,無須執著或迷戀,也不會被任何事物所左右。生活出自己、生活出精神的真正自由,那種100%的純粹自由與愉悅。也只有當心靈不再執著於「自我」的觀念,甚至也不執著於任何的時候,那才是最祥和、純淨。如果心靈精神意識到「自我」,存在於事物中,那麼它就會執著「自我」,心就會悶、不愉快、不自由、便不能隨心所欲!

身在現代藝術繽紛中,要如何發展自己對「非空間」的想法,但又不能脫離現代藝術,在這種情況之下,為了要證明自己的存在,我結合了自由創作的關係,從藝術的角度出發,展現精神、心理、哲學的層次,誠如心理學家、哲學家等所說的:「潛意識的世界是自由、純真、原始,畢竟意識中的精神情況往往被抑制,只有潛意識的活動才是最能接近自我」。至於,我要如何來發展我的功課,我只想順其自然讓「非空間」裡的Jo Hsieh完全的發揮,讓大家分享我透明的、流動的、柔軟的、會反射的世界!

Blue and All Its Creations: None-Space

Jo Hsieh Artist

I clearly remember, when I was about four years old my mother bought me poster paints in red, yellow and blue to play with. In addition, she taught me the magic of transformation: red + yellow = orange, blue + yellow = green, red + blue = purple, a world of ever-changing richness and diversity surrounding me. I don’t know why that made me fall in love with art, or why it was that my artistic awakening all came from my mother teaching me what ‘colour’ is.

On my 18th birthday, I asked myself, what I really wanted to achieve in this life? Whilst a full life contains several eighteens of years, the candles lit for an eighteenth birthday burn just once, thus, I set myself to completing the necessary formalities, and made straight for my long-desired British Royal College of Art.

It was at Chelsea College of Art and Design that I encountered one of my most respected teachers – Amanda. She opened my mind to new manners of thought and reflection, and together we talked of anything and everything. All the ideas which have collectively become None-Space were derived from a homework assignment entitled‘None-Space’. Whilst at Chelsea, every day was a delight to me, as the liberated atmosphere of study was exactly what I had always sought. Afterwards, at the Royal College of Art, I was fortunate enough to meet Sir Tim Mara and Sir Jonathan. They, Amanda and I continuously communicate and exchange ideas and knowledge.

I personally have a profound attachment to the colour blue. I have always felt that blue is a colour that can speak, that is mysterious, unfathomable, transparent yet deep… Like the experience of listening to the voice of Maria Callas (1923-1977) it encompasses all, and is at once close and immeasurably distant. I remember in 1997, sitting alone on a train bound for Spain, looking out of the window on a perfect blue sky. The limpid waters of the river below reflected back a myriad of different blues: light, shadow and color so utterly pure they stirred the very abysses of the soul. Starting from that moment, blue branded itself onto the deepest corners of my heart.

None-Space

I believe firmly in the existence of both‘space’and‘None-Space’which exists within the heart of each and every person.‘None-space’is immaterial. Like air, it corresponds to no rules, it has no beginning and no end, and is not merely spiritual! Thus, it can be translated and expressed in all languages, or through painting, dancing, music, or poetry, or else it is expressed in philosophy, psychology… Even so, I use art to make manifest all I imagine, all I see – after all, these are the only tools I know how to use. The Zen Buddhist koan Ten Bulls (a series of portraits showing the path to enlightenment) is a good example. W.A. Mozart (1756-1791) once said‘I cannot write in verse, for I am no poet. I cannot arrange the parts of speech with such art as to produce effects of light and shade, for I am no painter. Even by signs and gestures I cannot express my thoughts and feelings, for I am no dancer. But I can do so by means of sounds, for I am a musician.’

None-Space is beginning and also ending, but the ending is also a beginning. If you were to carefully compare these two points – that is the present points of‘beginning’and‘ending’ – you would discover that the space between those points is infinite, and so‘None-Space’ emerges.

None-Space is interior, it is thought, it is consciousness, it is completeness and it is also nothingness. It is intuitive, it is happiness, it has no shape, it has no body. It is limpid, and, like fog, it never makes demands. It is natural, it flies, it is timeless, it is abstract and has neither laws nor limits, it is infinite, and it is beauty!

It exists in the depths of the soul!

It is pure, and simple!

Ego;Non-Ego

Ego: non-ego; self: selflessness; for many people, this is a problem that can never be untangled. In truth, it is not irresolvable, but is among the most restrictive and profound of issues. It is the esoteric nature of the problem which means many do not have the penetrating insight to resolve it. Explaining‘ego; non-ego’is not hard, as it is the essence of None-Space. Through painting I have gradually come to realize that explaining what I understand is better than no explanation.

Ego; non-ego is a philosophical problem, yet in parts it is also a problem concerning mystical experience. It can be taken as a philosophical problem because, on a purely theoretical level,‘non-ego’(anatta, non-self) encompasses realms of consciousness, serenity and joy; many people believe that having ego/self is to reach a state of eternal happiness. However, the‘self ’they speak of is the self of physical existence. Clearly these individuals exist in None-Space, but they are not purely self/ego, as some are illusory and the ones that are not illusory are natural. They should not be clung to and regarded as ego as it is our own wisdom, minute, unconscious‘collective age’that makes us cling to them.

Non-ego is thus careful and profound, intangible in nature. If we had the ability to see through‘non-ego’, we would be able to see the truth of all things with wide and penetrating insight, no matter be they material or immaterial, wordly, or transcendent. We would be able to comprehend the extraordinariness inherent in all things, free from attachment and infatuation, uncontrolled by anything, with a life and mind that is truly free and with the purity of being completely liberated and happy. It only needs that care is taken so that the soul does not reattach itself to the concept of‘self ’or indeed to any other time or thing. This is the state of calm and of purity. If there is a spiritual awareness and consciousness of ego, self and material existence, then the soul will reattach itself to ego and self, and the heart will be smothered, unhappy, imprisoned, and thus unable to achieve contentment.

Set amid the tides of modern art, I wondered how I could develop my ideas of None-Space without removing myself from the sphere of modern art. To testify to my own existence, I chose to combine my creative freedom with a desire to explore and verify philosophical propositions about consciousness and spirituality. As stated by psychologists, philosophers and others:‘The world of the subconscious is free, pure, primitive, but is suppressed by the conscious mind. It is only subconscious activity that can approach ego (self).’As for how I can realise my own creative assignment, I can only let nature take its course. I must allow the None-Space Jo Hsieh to fully express herself, without fear of the consequences, as None-Space is transparent, flexible and in its depths is reflected everything!